The Pain of Losing Someone

Take a breath
I pull myself together
Just another step till I reach the door
You'll never know the way it tears me up inside to see you
I wish that I could tell you something
To take it all away...

Ever lost someone you truly cared about? Was it your fault? Did you do something to hurt her? Did you drive him away? Did you make him pay for someone else's mistakes? Did you cheat on her with someone close to her? Does it matter who hurt the other? Does it matter that you tried to apologize? The truth is, we've all hurt someone that we truly loved and cared for at some point in our lives. Unfortunately pain is a nasty poison, it erodes the bonds of friendship and annihilates even the most enduring of relationships.

What is surprising is, it hurts you more to see your loved one suffering, than your loved one suffers for your mistake. Tears follow, along with a feeling of fatality. The more you try to reach out to your loved one, the more they draw away, the more miserable you become. You try desperately by every means to patch things up with your loved one, but all fails. You look to the heavens and feel the weight of the world on your shoulders. You try so hard, you try so hard...

Sometimes you will not know why your beloved withdraws from you. Sometimes, you will miss the very pieces of the puzzle that you need to figure out the mystery. But do you know what the worst pain is? The worst pain is knowing what you did that caused it and not knowing if they will ever forgive you for it.

These indeed are some of the darkest moments in one's life, when you realize you lost a good relationship that you may never gain again. Our worst fear is that we will never be forgiven and our deeds never forgotten. This is especially bad for many of us since our sense of self-value comes from what the people closest to us perceive about us.

Take heart my child, time heals all souls and if that person truly loves you, they will always care and they will forgive - even if you never see it on their exterior. Love is a strange thing, always remember...

Love is patient, Love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It does not dishonour others, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered. It keeps no record of wrongs....