Dear Future Wife

Who can say where the road goes
Where the day flows, only time
And who can say if your love grows
As your heart chose, only time

- Enya

 Dear Future wife, I love you and I want you to know that my love for you is as endless as the sea. I know that you will be a good role model to our children and that together we will teach them in the way that they should go. Your love for them will be as boundless as the universe and under your tender care, they will flourish like roses in the spring. I know that I will be a loving and faithful husband to you my beautiful and virtuous wife and that we shall live long and savour the sweetness of our marriage.

My dear future wife, there are things about me that you need to understand before we can have that sweet life that awaits us. It is not my wish to alarm you, nor is it my intention to hurt you but I want you to know the person that I am before I marry you and share eternity with you. I want you to know that even though I love you that I won't always be as close to you as you'd want. It will not mean that I no longer love you, it will not mean that I no longer find you attractive, it will mean that I am not always superman, that sometimes I am Clark Kent.

My dearest sweetheart, I love you with a love that shall not die even if the sun should grow cold and the stars grow old. There is still more to me that will surprise you. My dear, please know that though I have big dreams and talk of great conquests, that I do not always succeed. I am no quitter but sometimes even my best is not enough. I will never give up, but if you see me silent and withdrawn, please understand that I just haven't found a way to win yet. Trust me and show me that you believe in me and I will find a way, not just to succeed but to come back to you.

My lovely dove, you know that I have few fears in this world. You know that I am a brave and steadfast man, who may sometimes blunder but who always bounces back in the end. My dearest treasure, my greatest fear is to lose you, not just through some natural calamity, no, my fear is that you will stop believing in me and in my dreams and in all that I have to offer you. My dreams are great yes, but my fear of gaining your love then losing it is greater. This is why sometimes I distance myself from you. My love for you is constant and unceasing, and if you never show any doubt in me, I will never make you feel alone or unloved.

My beloved princess, I know that I treat you out to great places and lavish you with expensive gifts. It is not always that my finances are good, it is that I want to share what I have with you, whenever I can. You see my love, I see you as a part of my life and because I am happy, I want to share my happiness with you. I would like for you to know that I do not wish for you to partake in my sorrows, my doubts and my fears. My precious love, I don't want you to see how truly vulnerable and weak I get sometimes when things don't work out, or when things aren't moving as fast as I want them to. It is at these times that the distance between us may grow. You see my love, you fell in love with Superman, you see my dear, I don't want you to see Clark Kent because I don't know if your heart can accommodate him too.

My gentle flower, I wish I was always strong, always sure about the future, never having a moment of doubt - like the starring characters of great action movies. I wish I could turn any situation around in the blink of an eye and make it all alright, but that's not how life works and Clark Kent doesn't know how to remove the cape that would show you the side of Superman that you don't know. 

My dearest love, I hope that someday that this will all make sense to you. Why I no longer call and why we go on fewer and fewer dates. I hope that some day you will understand, how hard it must be, to love someone and to know that you can't keep them. To care for someone but to be afraid to lose them. To want somebody whom you can't have, not because there is anything in the world that can stop you, but because to that person you are only Superman, and not Clark Kent.

I keep dreaming you'll be with me and you'll never go

But it's time to face the truth, I will never be with you...